What is God's Will For Me?

 Have you ever asked yourself why you exist? Why did God choose to put you in this world? I have heard that asking yourself questions like the ones above gets you nowhere. But living each day to the fullest and living for Jesus is what will make you feel the most fulfilled. I know for me, I need to be more focused in the present moment but it is hard. Have you ever really thought about what doing hard things could do for you in the long run? For me, doing hard things could be a potential heart grower. My heart is good. It could be better. Doing hard things, with abounding love will allow us to focus more on Jesus. I think that so often, I put Jesus on the outside of my life, rather than including him in my inner circle, where my family is. But I am slowly realizing that if I want to grow in my relationship with Jesus, I need to be willing to give him my heart. Sometimes, I find myself doing the minimum with the least amount of heart, but if I was made for greatness which God says we all are, then I need to try harder. 

Some ideas that I have been practicing for a few days in the morning are: journaling, reading my devotional, and reading a book about a real person that I can relate to greatly. Sometimes we have to try extra hard if we want to grow and that's okay. As long as we don't give up. Doing this and making it a habit allows me to cultivate the strength I know I have within me and helps me to believe in myself more than I do. I encourage you too to find something you can do daily if you want to grow closer to Jesus because that can be hard! :) 

The word excellence does not mean perfection. Excellence is diligence. Sometimes it takes work on our part if we want to change. Life doesn't come easy for anyone and that is the way it is supposed to be. No one's life is perfect no matter how hard they try to make it look that way. Everyone struggles with anxiety and or depression no matter how well they hide it. No one ever is as successful as they make it seem. I am learning to stop trying to "catch up" to my peers. There is no point whatsoever! I am a different person and frankly, I am happy about that, ha. So often, I feel as if I am behind or not good enough for the life I have been blessed with. Jesus gave us this life so that automatically makes us all good enough to be living. 

Does striving for greatness ever make you afraid? It does for me. I know I am called to live with a big and good heart but sometimes that can be hard and scary. I sometimes shy away from what I know is noble because I am afraid those tasks are too big for me. But they aren't. They aren't too big for you either. Sometimes you have to make a million and one little mistakes to learn. And sometimes you will recover from those mistakes and they will sneak back upon you; making you feel bad about yourself. But Jesus says: "For I will forgive their wickedness and remember their sins no more." I don't know about you, but I think this is pretty cool of Jesus! How great his love is for every one of us. 

Anyway, thank you for reading all of my unsolicited advice once again friends. You are capable of having a good heart and I hope you remember that no matter how badly you think you've messed up in life. <3 

What a life we get to live, 

Maggie